Thinking of you

*I apologize in advance for this post being so damn depressing.........

I've been thinking about mom so much lately. More so than I normally do. I want so badly to call her and tell her the new things that Chase is doing and how well Ty is doing in school. It's been almost 2 years, but I miss our morning calls, chatting about nothing in particular............I miss calling her to get help with cooking spaghetti, even though i've made it hundreds of time. When I get pictures printed I say to myself "I need to make sure I get an extra set to send to mom...." and then realize I don't need that extra set. I just miss knowing that she's there. After I dropped Ty off at school this morning I put a cd in and heard a song that hit close to home for me........it's called "Thinking of you" by Lenny Kravitz:

Music: Lenny Kravitz/Lysa Trenier - Lyrics: Lenny Kravitz

Tell me mama is your life a better change?
And tell me mama
Would you live your life the same
Or come back and rearrange?
Tell me mama how is freedom?

Oh I'm thinking of you
And all the things that you wanted me to be
And I'm trying now
Oh I'm thinking of you
And all the things that you wanted me to be

Tell me mama
Are the colors deeper shades?
And tell me mama
Are there great big brass parades?
Does the sun shine night and day?
Tell me mama no more sleeping
Tell me mama no more weeping

I'm thinking of you
And all the things that you wanted me to be
And I'm trying now

Oh I'm thinking of you
And all the things that you wanted me to be
And I'm trying now

Oh I'm thinking of you
And all the things that you wanted me to be
And I'm trying now

Oh I'm thinking of you
And all the things that you wanted me to be yeah

Hey mama, hey mamama, mama
No, no, no, no, no
Oh no, no, no, no, no
Hey

Tell me mama is it just the way they say?
Tell me mama
And tell me mama are you missing me the way
That I'm missing you today?
Tell me mama can you hear me?

Oh I'm thinking of you
And all the things that you wanted me to be
And I'm trying now
(Repeat 5x)

Oh I'm thinking of you
Thinking of you

Miss you, mom.................