Rainy day

It's been a little bit since i've done a "regular" post here, so I guess it's time for one huh?!? LOL

down and went to sleep pretty quickly. When I knew he was good and asleep, we brought all his gifts down from upstairs and set them up under and around the tree. We did end up being sneaky with his portable I hope everyone had a great Christmas! Our's was very nice. Christmas eve Zane took Tyler and I to Pigeon Forge to see all the lights there. It's pretty much our family tradition.....so is getting a funnel cake there! Usually we have to go up into Gatlinburg to get a funnel cake, but this year the place in Pigeon Forge was still open when we got over there so we didn't venture up the mountain this year. We ate our funnel cake at Patriot Park and it was SO super yummy!!!!! I'm sure I probably gained a pound or so back after eating it, but it was SO worth it! LOL I tried to get a few pics of the lights we saw, but for some reason my camera wasn't working with me. We had such a great time there, though! When we got home it was after 9pm, so I got Ty settled down and into his pj's, then let him help me set out cookies for santa. Once he had the right amount of cookies, he climbed into bed and said "mommy, make sure you don't eat those cookies...they are for santa!" LOL I assured him I would not touch them, and he finally laid done andwent to sleep. Once we knew he was passed out, we brought all the gifts down from upstairs and set them up under and around the tree. We really got him with the portable dvd player, though. We hid it until after he opened all his gifts! LOL All in all he made out very well this year. He loved everything!

So, i've been doing my best to keep myself busy and occupied so I don't dwell on the news about my mom. I got the playroom cleaned out and organized to make room for all the new toys Ty got. Now all I need to do is get the living room cleaned out! I was going to work on taking the Christmas stuff down from in there, but I think i'll wait until this weekend. I'll be so glad to have my living room back. There are toys all over the place in there! I have been slowly taking toys into the playroom, but they somehow make there way back into the living room. Hopefully once the tree and other decorations are down and out of there it won't be so cluttered when he brings a toy into there.

I also started working on getting things for his birthday and working on a "party" for him. We're going to do a Scooby-Doo theme this year. I ordered the cake toppers yesterday, plus some other party favors today. (thank you amazon gift cards! LOL) I also got a few things from eBay to go along with his party. I don't know if we'll have anyone be here for his b-day, but if we do we'll be ready for them! Actually, Zane is hoping his mom and dad can be here for Ty's birthday, which would be really nice. But if it's just the three of us we'll still have a great time! I would be nice to have some family here to celebrate with us, though.........

Well, I guess that's all for now. I really need to get some stuff done in the living room before I get dinner going. Tonight we're having steak off the grill with some rice and some kind of veggie.....yum!!! Take care all!!!!

Moms surgery

Well, I finally got a call from my sister Kathie around 5pm. It is what we all feared.....my mother has cancer. :( The doctor said it is very bad, and what makes it worse is they can not pinpoint exactly where the cancer came from or what may have caused it. She will have to see the doctor again next week to talk more about the possiblity of starting chemo, but he even said that would possibly give her another 5 years, and that is only IF it works for her. They drained LOTS of fluid from the are where the tumor is, and they are hoping that was ease up the pain for her, but the doctor stated that would be only temporary and she would be in quite a bit of pain. So, that is where we stand at this point. When I talked to my sister, my mom was just going into recovery and she still didn't know yet. Damn......why the hell do we have to be so far away?!?!? Why can't I be there with her now....

I may not be able to update too much because my computer is starting to crap out on me. I will try and update as frequently as I can as I find out more info.......thank you all for your thoughts. They are greatly appreciated.....**hugs**

Mom has her surgery today

Well, today is the day my mom finally finds out what exactly is going on inside. Her surgery is scheduled for 11am this morning, and my sister Kathie is supposed to be at the hospital and will call me as soon as the doctor's are finished. I did get to talk to my mom this morning before she left for the hospital, and Tyler talked with her as well. I know it made her feel good to hear him this morning. I feel so helpless being so far away like I am.....:(

If possible, could you all please keep my mom in your thoughts today? It would be so greatly appreciated......

I'll update here once I find out anything today........

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Hope everyone has a safe and wonderful Christmas!!! Love you!!!!!!!!!!!

I DID IT!!!!!

I met my first weight loss goal of 10 lbs.!!! In less then 2 weeks, I made it out of the 200's........now i'm working my way out of the 190's!!!

I was so excited, I moved my ticker to the top of the page! LOL

Updated my ticker....

at the bottom of my page....check it out!!!!!!

8 more days!!!

Until Christmas morning!!! I am just beyond excited!!! I can't wait to see this kids face when he opens the gifts everyone has got him. We were so blessed this year with the gifts everyone has sent him. Plus all the Amazon gift cards I received really helped us out with getting Ty gifts since money is so tight this time of year for us. I just wish we were around family and friends to share the holidays with them. I miss them all so very much.......

So Saturday a friend of Zanes brought us a trailer full of wood for us and I am so glad he did!! It has been so cold out! The wind was just awful yesterday...20-30 mph! We also got a few snow flurries, but that's about it. I am very thankful that all we are getting is the cold weather, though! All those poor people who have gotten horrible ice and snow storms......I miss getting snow, but not like some have gotten it! LOL Today is only supposed to be in the low 40's with wind chills in the 30's, so I will be keeping the wood stove cranked today!

Today I have laundry calling my name, plus the bathroom floor needs scrubbed pretty good. I'd also like to get the playroom organized better, especially since more toys will be added to the mess next week. Ugh, I really should just go through the toys and put away what he doesn't play with and what he has outgrown so it won't be even more over crowded next week. Also today, I want to get upstairs and get his presents more organized and ready to bring down next week. Everything is wrapped, thank goodness, it is just scattered everywhere! LOL I'd also like to take some pics of my scrapbook pages and get them uploaded. I've been wanting to do that for awhile now, so hopefully today I'll get that done!

Well, time to get moving I guess. Hope everyone is doing good and has a great week!!!

New pill update

Well, I have to say I am really liking this new pill so far. I'm still not feeling the extra energy I was hoping for, but I have cut back drastically on how much I eat.....and that constant hungry feeling is gone!!! But, the best thing so far is......




I HAVE LOST 5 LBS SINCE STARTING THIS PILL ON THE 11TH!!!!! I just can't believe it!!! I am so glad I decided to give this medicine a shot! Now all I need to do is work on eating things a little higher in carbs/protein so I can avoid having sugar lows during the day. I think i'm going to do a search for some meal plan ideas to help me get a better grip on these sugar lows.

I did decide to add the weight loss ticker again at the bottom of my blog, hopefully I can leave it there and continue to see it go down!!! I'm only counting down 10 lbs at a time so it doesn't look so overwhelming on me with all the weight i'd like to lose.......I can do this!!!!

Latest mom news

So my mom finally got a call back from the surgeons office. She will go in for surgery on Dec. 26th. Depending on what all they find, she may get to come home that same day. I am so glad they fit her in so quickly....I was worried they would make her suffer until after the first of the year! And she is in so much pain, I feel so bad for her. :( I wish like heck I could be there at the hospital with her....being so far away is so difficult. :(

I will be sure to update as I find out more info......**hugs**

Ahhh, the joys of having kids.....

**WARNING!!** This post may be offensive to some, so if you are very easily offended, please don't read any further. Of course, I will do my best to keep the entry as clean as possible, but it may still offend some......





So a few nights ago, Tyler was sitting in the living room, watching Tom & Jerry and Zane and I were laying across the bed talking. Now, our living room is right next to our bedroom and there is a doorway, but no door up. Anyhoo, we're talking when of course one thing leads to another.......you get the idea. We're doing our very best to be as quiet as possible......it didn't work. Next thing we here is this:

"DADDY!! GET OFF OF MOMMY!! PUT YOUR UNDERWEAR ON NOW AND GET OUT OF THAT BED!!"

He had the most serious look on his face!! And the tone of his voice......it was all I could do not to bust out laughing right then and there!!!! So needless to say we learned a valuable lesson that night.....never try to get freaky unless the kid is asleep!!!

So far so good

Well, I can already feel a difference with this new pill. I didn't have the energy I thought I would have yesterday (although, I didn't feel no where near as run down as I have been), but I felt something!! I felt a little "jittery" inside, if that makes sense. And not in a bad way at all. It definitely curbed my appetite all day long. I did end up having a sugar low at lunch time, and last night I had to make sure I ate something that would keep my sugar up last night since it was a little low before bedtime.

Now to the downside of this......I was WIDE awake at freakin' 3:30am!!! I'm not sure if it was from the meds or from the darn skunk smell coming through the bedroom window.......ugh, that was awful!!!! I had to get up out of bed to light a match and get rid of the nasty smell.....and of course i'm the only one that smells it in the bedroom. After I laid back down I tossed and turned a little, then by 5am I just couldn't lay there any more. I don't feel tired as of now, so we'll see how the day goes. I took my pill already today and am feeling the "jittery" feeling again, but to be honest, I like it! LOL I also exercised again this morning, but only for 10-12 minutes.....I think i'll get back on the machine again later today to do a little more................

Awesome mail day so far!!!

Well, no snail mail yet, but I got a total shock today in my email....

I got $80 in Amazon.com gift cards!!!! I was SO not expecting that much today! I finally ordered the gift I had been wanting to get Zane, plus I got Ty a few things for his birthday next month......even if the snail mail is all junk I am still a happy camper today!!!

ETA: I forgot to mention that on Saturday I finally got the first gift I ordered for Zane....I just hope what I ordered him today actually makes it here since it was the last one in stock!

Here we go.....

Ok, I broke down and got the prescription filled for the weightloss pill Phentermine. *sigh* I feel like such a failure since I can't get rid of this weight on my own. So I guess we'll see how this does.....I took my first one about 15 minutes ago, and i'll update as I progress with this.

Mail update

Well, the mail hasn't been the greatest but yesterday we got:

- a Christmas card from Pam & her family (THANK YOU!!! We love it!)
- Christmas cards from Z's parents
- junk mail :(

I'm still waiting for Z's Christmas gift.......it's been over a week since they were supposed to ship it out. Hopefully i'll get it today and get it wrapped up before he gets home!

Had such a great day yesterday!!

So, yesterday was Zane's day off. I found out on wednesday night that Zanes shop won some sort of contest (through the head/corporate office) and they were going to be getting money for winning!! He had no idea how much, but his boss was going to be bringing the money by Z's shop yesterday. The manager finally called Z around 2:30pm to let him know the checks were there, so we left to pick it up........when we get there we found out the check was for $250!!!! How awesome is that?!? Gosh, we totally needed that this week since rent was due. We hit Sam's Club on the way home and got a few things we needed from there, then went over to Wal-mart. Yesterday we ended up getting Ty even more things for Christmas!!! There is just no hope for us, is there?!? LOL Wal-mart had a Disney Car's blanket marked down to only $7!! It is SO cute! We also got him some cars from the movie Cars for his stocking....3 total yesterday. We did get him a pair of new pj's for Christmas eve, but Z had to take them back today becuase they were too small. The pants fit but the shirt was too small. We're going back to Wal-mart sunday to see if they have another pair in his size, since the Wal-mart he went to this morning didn't have Ty's size. One good deal we got yesterday was on batteries.....we got 72 batteries (48 AA and 24 AAA) for only $12! Just in time for Christmas! LOL We also got our dad's a cool shirt for Christmas, so if we could stop buying for Ty, we would be DONE!!!!!! I still haven't gotten Z's Christmas present I ordered. It was supposedly shipped last week, so hopefully i'll be getting it any day. I'll just be glad to have it in my hands. I think when I do get it i'm going to wrap it and put it under the tree just to drive him crazy! LOL

To top yesterday off, Zane treated us to a nice, sit-down dinner........at Texas Roadhouse!!! OMG, they ROCK!!! I just love their baked potatoes....and their ribs and steak kick some serious butt!!! Although, last night I decided to get the grilled shrimp instead of ribs.....mmmm, SO good. And their rolls......I was in heaven!!! It was so nice to have a dinner like that....it was just perfect!!!

Well, I need to go search for some ribbon I need....tonight for dinner we're having ham steaks off the grill, with some sort of veggie. YUM!!!!

My doctor appt. yesterday

It actually went pretty good!! They did a complete physical, which I haven't had done in years. They first tested my urine, then took blood for my A1C test and for cholesterol and other things. My A1C was awesome!!! I went from being over 11 down to 5.7, in only 6 months!!! How awesome is that?!?!? I am actually in the normal range! Plus, my blood pressure is rockin', too!!! The doctor was truly impressed with how well i've done with my sugar and my blood pressure. Especially since when I first went to see him my pressure was 270/160!

Now onto some not so great news. My cholesterol is pretty high, which is kind of common in diabetics. Plus, my weight is up. I have gained 20 lbs in 6 months! I put part of the blame on the Actos. Since taking it, that is when most of the weight gain started. Since I need to stay on it, I broke down and told the doctor I was interested in the weight loss pill we had talked about, phentermine. I've talked with several people who have had great success with it, including my doctor!! I asked him all about the side effects and he told me all about it. So, I told him I would start taking it within the next few days. Having to break down and take it makes me feel like such a failure, though. Why couldn't I do this on my own, darn it?!? But, I know I need to get this weight off somehow, and that I do need some help with it. So, I will be picking the prescription up most likely on Sunday morning. If this weight can come off, then it should help with the cholesterol and hopefully i'll be able to go off of Actos! I'll be sure to let everyone know how it works!!

Also, with the urine sample, he was concerned with that the most because there was some blood in it, and it was not from aunt flo. He wanted me to come back in 2 weeks to get re-tested but there was no way I could come up with the co-pay to see him again so quickly, and so close to the holidays. So he settled for me coming back the second week of January. His office will be closing down on the 21st of this month and won't reopen until January 2nd so that's one other reason why i'm waiting to go back on the 10th. Hopefully by then i'll have lost some of this pesky weight!!! Also, I was given a tetnus shot and a flu shot yesterday and boy do my arms hurt this morning!! Where I got the tetnus shot is hot to the touch as well....fun, huh?!? LOL

UGH!!!

Darn those Pepperidge Farm people for making such a super yummy cookie!!!

Tahiti Coconut

Quick mom update

I realize I haven't updated about my mom lately....i'm so sorry!! There really isn't anything more to update just yet. She is still hurting pretty badly. She has an appointment with a stomach doctor/specialist on Thursday and she see's the surgeon on Friday to find out when they will be doing the surgery. Hopefully Friday she'll find out when her surgery will take place. She is still very worried about what they will find, as we all are. :( She's been pretty down about the holiday's coming up and not being able to shop for gifts......we did send her an ornament that Ty made for her and she said that really lifted her spirits up ALOT!! And the Christmas card we sent her helped with that as well. I just wish we could get up there to MD to be with her at Christmas time.....I hate being so far away.

I'll update when I find out anything from her appointments this week! Thank you all for the thoughts and prayers!! **hugs**

Doctor appointment this Thursday

Well, I finally have an appointment for the doctor this Thursday. I originally had it scheduled in October, but Zane was sick the week of my appointment, so we had to reschedule the date. Then a few days before that appointment, the doctors office called and said they needed to reschedule me because the nurse was going to be off the day of my appointment. (Yes, the office only has ONE nurse!! Weird, huh?!?) So, the appointment is finally coming up! It's supposed to be a full physical, so it will most likely be a long visit. I'm anxious to see where my A1C is, since my readings have been pretty good for the past few months. I'm not looking forward to seeing how bad my weight has gotten...I am so disgusted with that!! I've still been exercising and eating good, but my weight keeps going up!! From what i've read and after talking with other people, it's from the Actos I am taking. I'm going to see how my A1C test is, and if it's come down i'm going to talk to my doctor about going off of Actos. The weight gain has been horrible for my self-esteem, which is pretty low anyway.....I might even talk to him about taking a presciption weight loss pill to help get some of this weight off of me, if I have to keep taking the Actos. Lots of diabetics have had great success with it, so i'll talk with him more about it. Although, the thought of taking something like that doesn't appeal to me, I realize I need some kind of help with this weight so i'll give it a shot if the doctor says it's ok. I guess i'll find out on Thursday. I'll be so to post how it all goes when I get back from the appointment!!

Recent mail

Well, mail hasn't been all that great but I have gotten a few things. The past few days i've gotten:

- a hat from some site (don't remember the name)
- an SD 1GB memory card, free!
- $20 total in Amazon gc's (rec'd $10 11/26 & 11/27...already used to get Z's Christmas gift!)
- $5 Paypal from Pinecone (rec'd today)
- Tyler got a box from his granny and grandpa with Christmas presents in it, and with a gift from his Uncle Dave.....now to try and keep him away from tehm until Christmas morning! LOL
- Another damn bill from the hospital! Actually, it came from a collection place......looks like we'll have to make another call to them! UGH, they drive me crazy!!!

I'll update this when today's mail comes....that is, if I get any good free samples! LOL :)